Sadness...

I have been experiencing brief moments of sadness for the past 2 weeks, they made me wonder what's wrong with me. The moments lasted just for a few seconds each time, but during that moments, I was totally washed by sadness, but I did not know what caused the sadness, and before I could delve into the matter, it disappeared..hehe... Maybe it's the sign of post-partum depression (PPD), or what the Malays call 'angin meroyan'?

I have read through the definition of PPD in Wikipedia, but the symptoms are not the same. Could boredom be the cause? But I did not feel bored during confinement. In fact I am enjoying the relaxation and pampering at the moment. So, what is the problem?

Maybe it's because I'm missing Hubby, and I am wishing that he's here to take care of me and the children. Perhaps...

Anyway, I hope these are temporary. Hopefully by the time the confinement period is over, the feeling would disappear and I can enjoy the new life with 2 children. Better still, we could all fly off to stay with Hubby there. Hmmmm.....

How did I celebrate my birthday yesterday?

By spring cleaning the house... Yes...What a nice way to celebrate. I didn't feel like it was my birthday in the first place. Maybe it's the age.. Maybe it's the fact that Hubby is not here to celebrate with me... *sigh*

Anyway, thanks a lot to my friends for the wishes in FB. It brightened up the day a little. And, I hope every doa that they said for me will be granted by the Almighty Allah...Amin ya rabbal a'lamin..

My best buddy Nisa came by the house for a sleep over last night and she is buying me lunch today. Wee hooooo!!! Thanks Babe!!!!!

For my birthday present, I wish my Hubby is here with me... Enough said... isk..isk...isk...

Getting older (and wiser, I hope)

I will be 32 in a few days time, InsyaAllah. I've never really cared about getting older or ageing, and I found no reason to keep my age a secret.

However, I do really feel very old when teenagers or high school kids call me aunty or mak cik. hehe... If small children, no issue. Maybe because I don't have high school going children yet, I think the term makcik is not really suitable....nyehehehe...

4 years...

....of mixed emotions, ups and downs, fights and make-ups, laughters and tears..

We celebrated our fourth wedding anniversary earlier this month. Well, not really celebrating in style or whatever, just us commemorating the years that we have spent together (bearing in mind also that we were apart for more than 2 years...hehe....)

Four years might be short or might be long, depending on our own perspectives. Sometimes we felt that it was only yesterday that we cut our wedding cakes and all, and sometimes it felt like ages ago (especially when we were having fights...hehe).

We might think that four years are quite a long period to know your spouses inside out. But for us, we are still in the learning process. We learn something new about the other half every other day. And we are still in the process of adapting to each other. So, to me, if some couples in love claimed that they knew each other inside out, they are soul mates yadda..yadda before they get married, boy, I think they have to really re-evaluate their notions...hehe...

Some times I do feel that my husband really knows me. Heck, he even knew when I was about to be visited by THAT friend every other month a few days beforehand. Even I didn't keep track. I guess it must have been the changing of behaviour and mood swings...hehe....

I also have a lot to cope in the food and drinks department, i.e what he likes and dislikes, how he likes his food to be cooked and drinks to be made etc. Like the other day, I just found out that he also loves to eat cili potong with hirisan bawang besar in kicap...just like I do. And after four years? Even I was amazed...hehe...

Anyway, here's hoping for more years happily together (boy I just hate it when we fight..and YES...we do fight A LOT!!!!) Maybe because I am hot headed and I do like to stand up for my thoughts (which could be so annoying to him..biasalah ego lelaki kan?)


But I am more mellow now (dah tua maaa...) so I know better when to speak or shut up, and I know when would be the right moments to bring some things up for discussion. And I think we are a lot better now.

So, Happy Anniversary darling (albeit a little late) and I hope we will continue to grow our love, commitment and understanding towards each other... May we improve ourselves and our bad habits to better accommodate each other so that we can lead a peaceful and meaningful live together...And may Allah bestow upon us all His blessings until the end of time...Ameen...

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!

Will

Have you written yours yet?

I haven't.

Though lately, the idea keeps toying in my head. I mean, life is so short and uncertain, eh? Not that I have a lot of assets and money, though...hehe..

I have named my beneficiaries for my KWSP (what was left inside it, anyway because I kept transferring it to UT) and insurance policies. But the rest of what I have, no.

What will happen to the house, car, cash, company assets and cash when I'm called upon by Allah The Almighty? I would certainly want them to benefit my son for his future. Hubby? Nanti dia kawen lagi susah la....haha....

I recently received a form from Amanah Raya offering the service at RM200 (since I am a Bank Islam credit card holder). I think it is a good offer and came just in time when I was thinking about the whole thing. Might just going to grab the opportunity but then I am not sure whether they can make it in time (I mean the processing and the will writing would surely take time, right?) before I take off to UK. Furthermore, I have not yet finalize all that I have and who should have them when I die into a proper list on paper. Or would they do this on behalf of me? Hmm...

Have you written yours yet?

Alamak...Lamanya tak update..

Yes, I have been busy. Very. Hence the abandonement of this blog for a while.

What was I up to? Well, Hubby came home for a week last week for a training here in his Malaysia office. At the same time, I was struggling with the company accounts which hadn't been updated for a very long time. The accounts were due for audit so that we could file them with the SSM. Being a trained engineer, I know nuts about accounts- hence the struggle.

It was also the pick up time for the academic market. A lot of enquiries and requests for quotations came in. I needed to attend to that. And a few clients with products that I supplied needed my attention and help to solve some of their technical problems related to the products.

To top it all, I was down with the flu bugs. And Daniel was a little bit under the weather, too. So, I needed to nurse. And I did a hell lot of cooking since dearest Hubby was around.

Have I bored you enough with my whining? hehe... I'm not quite done yet!

2 days through the training, Hubby called from office, saying that his boss had instructed him to check in at a hotel nearby his office. Reason being, he was late coming in on both days of the training. Subang-KL in the mornings with the traffic and the rain were not helping him to punctually clock in the time for training.

So, that night, the 3 of us checked into Dorsett Regency, KL. Oops..I must mention that I brought my Mum to the Craft Centre for the Craft Fest earlier that afternoon. Went through the bad traffic crawl on the way back home, only to go back to the same spot merely 3 hours after that. (Craft Centre and Dorsett are very close to each other, for you who do not know..hehe..)

For the next 3 early mornings, I travelled back to PH to send Daniel to school while Hubby attended his training. Then I would do the laundry, cook, generate quotations, attended to technical problems, update the accounts bla bla until it was time for me to pick up my darling son from school at 3.30pm. Then, I drove straight back to Chulan Tower to pick up my Hubby.

Ekhem..Still not quite done...haha! My MIL came down for a visit on the third day of Hubby's training. She bunked at my SIL's house in Puchong. I was supposed to pick her up from the bus station in Shah Alam, but due to the heavy traffic on the way back from picking up my Hubby that day, we had to ask Hubby's BIL to do the favor. We went straight to SIL's house for dinner that night. Then, back to Dorsett. This cycle went for two days.

On the final day of Hubby's training, after picking both boys from their respectice places, we hurdled through the heavy Friday traffic back home, had a quick pit stop at Pyramid for a bit of shopping, back home for dinner and packing (yes, I also cooked that day) and shot to KLIA to send Hubby back to UK. Pit stop again at my SIL's house for Hubby to bid farewell to his Mak. Hubby checked-in, kiss-kiss, salam-salam, and off he went. It was past midnight when we left KLIA and we reached my Mum's house (slept there that night since my lil' bro was outstationed to Bintulu) way past 2 am, and I was totally drained out of my energy..

Now, I am done.. haha!

Good enough reason, eh? hehe....

Of Being 31

Well, I turned 31 years old today..Alhamdulillah. Thanks to Allah for the last 31 years and insyaAllah more years to come. Hubby, Daniel, my parents and siblings were around to celebrate. Couldn't ask for a better suiter celebration.

Like a friend pointed out, somehow, being 31 doesn't feel as old as being 30... hehe... There's truth in that, because I quite freaked out when I entered my 30's last year. Felt so old to be in the 30's. Maybe this year, my mind had already synchronized the internal memory, and had accepted the fact that I am already in my 30's, so it didn't crack just as bad as last year...hehe...

We had lunch at Korean BBQ Chicken in Taipan (myself, Hubby and Daniel just love the food there). Have yet to cut a cake, though. So sad..Nobody bought me a cake...huhu...

I have yet to receive my present from dear Hubby. Said he wanted it to be a surprise (yooo lah tuuuu...) and he is going to buy it when he goes out alone.. hmmmphhh.. Suspence...hehe... Got a new handbag from my parents. Loved it!

Tergezut aku!

A phone conversation with a guy from a courier service just now:

Guy: Hello! Is this (my company name)?
Me: Yes
Guy: Saya nak tanya. Alamat yang XXXX ni alamat rumah kan?
Me: Yes
Guy: Saya ada nak collect cek ni. Rumah ni yang ada kereta XXX kaler XXX tu kan?
Me: (Terkejut ungka) Haah! Eh, mana you tau? (Buat saspen jer ni? Ada orang stalk aku ker? hehe)
Guy: Oh! Tadi saya dah sampai kat depan rumah. Dua kali saya datang.
Me: (Phuh! Lega..) Laaa...apesal tak call?
Guy: Saya terlupa ambik nombor telefon
Me: Ooo...OK datang la ambik cek ni petang-petang sikit
Guy: OK, dalam pukul 4.30pm kang saya sampai
Me: OK

Kalau korang, korang tak terkejut ker? hehe...

Age and what does it make of you

I was watching Boyzone Reunion Concert in Manchester on Channel 808 Fiesta, when suddenly an SMS came in. It was from an old client, who then became a buddy but we haven't met in quite a long time. The SMS read "Happy Birthday and many happy returns from this day" to which I quickly replied "Not yet la dude. In another 10 days time. I am not so eager to become a year older yet" hehe..

Yes, I am counting the days (not so much counting la...dreading actually..hehe..) to be a 31 years old lady (ewwah!). And how does being in the 30s changed me? For one, I definitely think now I am much more mellow than before (dulu pun mellow gak tapi not as bad as nowadays, ok? hehe...) My tears can roll down very, very much easier nowadays, even while watching concerts ok? (so now you know that I cried a bit while watching Boyzone's concert just now...hehe..) I could also cry very easily while on the phone with Hubby. And to many more simple things that used to not bother me at all before.

I am also so much fatter than I used to be..hehe.. I blame it on pregnancy... kuikuikui... No lah...I blame it on my decreased metabolism rate (I used to be very skinny in my youth days, you know!) Pregnancy is such a wonderful time, and because of it, I have my precious darling now. The only thing to remember, should I decide to get pregnant again, is to control my diet while pregnant AND during confinement...(If my Hubby knows that I admit this, he would say "I told you so!") miahahahah!

Financially? More stable now that I am off most of my debts (study loans, credit cards bla..bla...) But I need to tune down on my spending (yeah, rite?) now that the economy is so gloomy yada yada yada..hehe.. OK, let's make that my 2009 resolution (cheh dah seminggu lebih 2009 baru nak ada azam..hehe)

Family and friends? I think I do not change in this matter. I have always been close to family and friends since way back when and I do not intend to change any of that.

Apa lagi ya? I couldn't think of anything else at the moment. So, YAY ME! I am turning 31! uhuk! uhuk! (dalam hati..hehe..)